My life is full of changes.
Let's see, since my last post, a lot has changed.
Yes, I worked with that guy as an administrative assistant and my time there was enjoyable.
Alas, they need my services no more after about 6 months? Because they're facing a bit of trouble and have to cut costs. Not to mention their prospect is looking pretty bleak so I don't blame them. But it was really nice working there, pleasant people and everything.
I could even go online :(
But moving on, I'm finally going back to studies! Diploma in Management. The only diploma available at the uni near my house. Meh, only taking a cert out of convenience, anything but Accounts.
But now, instead of the money coming in, it's money going out at quite an alarming rate. I really hope my PTPTN loan is processed without difficulty, as I'll be paying for myself.
I have decided not to enter any relationship for a certain period of time.
Better off without complications at the moment.
I have met a guy that I am interested in becoming friends with though.
But the tricky part now is to try and figure out how to let him know so he'll not be wary or cautious because I'm not looking to be with someone but rather just being friends and well, just outings.
About the conflict in my family, I can only pray to God and hope that all will be well.
I've recently went back for cellgroup and after a few weeks I'll be going back to church too. Out of my own will. It's time.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Officially Moving On!
Yep. Officially moving on!
I’ve finished another part time job yay. I’ve been sleeping really late recently. Like early morning.
I suspect I’m pushing myself to my limit so that I lie down straight, flat out tired and just sleep before my head even touches the pillow. Because I don’t want to think.
Officially moving on! And btw, Rochester’s Farewell, an opera like song that sounds so sad which is recently written. Should be recent, uncertain.
I’ve finished another part time job yay. I’ve been sleeping really late recently. Like early morning.
I suspect I’m pushing myself to my limit so that I lie down straight, flat out tired and just sleep before my head even touches the pillow. Because I don’t want to think.
Officially moving on! And btw, Rochester’s Farewell, an opera like song that sounds so sad which is recently written. Should be recent, uncertain.
Monday, December 29, 2008
:D
I'm feeling scared. I'm feeling scared of the unknown.
But I know that the decision that I made is right.
Instead of 6 months, it's suddenly here. Around the corner. Because of circumstances.
But when it comes down to it, it is my choice. I just think that I'm very nervous about it that's all.
This is to my best friend Steffie. Things will never change between us no matter how far we travel down the path of our own destiny. I can promise you that. Because to me, you've become an important person. You have become family. I love you and heartily thank God that he sent me you in my teenage years because you helped me discover myself, and form my character when I was fragile. Who I am now, is a mix of you and myself. And I'm proud and happy to say, a part of yourself is also influenced by me.
I am glad that despite our little differences, we have no trouble communicating. I would say ,"The sky..." and you'd say, '"is blue..." I love the times when we'd both go silly and laugh like shit over things we'd both say, or things I'd say or things that you'd say. And I know, I just know that when we're in our 40's, we'd still remain the same. Because I'm not planning on changing. Unless you are >_>
Doing what I'm about to do, takes a lot of courage, at least from me, at this present moment. This is bigger than me, and I shall put it in God's hands. I'm not being negative about it. I'm ready, just overwhelmed. After seeing Aunty Rumba tonight for dinner, and asking her to pray for me and... My heart was a pounding and here I am...
But I know that the decision that I made is right.
Instead of 6 months, it's suddenly here. Around the corner. Because of circumstances.
But when it comes down to it, it is my choice. I just think that I'm very nervous about it that's all.
This is to my best friend Steffie. Things will never change between us no matter how far we travel down the path of our own destiny. I can promise you that. Because to me, you've become an important person. You have become family. I love you and heartily thank God that he sent me you in my teenage years because you helped me discover myself, and form my character when I was fragile. Who I am now, is a mix of you and myself. And I'm proud and happy to say, a part of yourself is also influenced by me.
I am glad that despite our little differences, we have no trouble communicating. I would say ,"The sky..." and you'd say, '"is blue..." I love the times when we'd both go silly and laugh like shit over things we'd both say, or things I'd say or things that you'd say. And I know, I just know that when we're in our 40's, we'd still remain the same. Because I'm not planning on changing. Unless you are >_>
Doing what I'm about to do, takes a lot of courage, at least from me, at this present moment. This is bigger than me, and I shall put it in God's hands. I'm not being negative about it. I'm ready, just overwhelmed. After seeing Aunty Rumba tonight for dinner, and asking her to pray for me and... My heart was a pounding and here I am...
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Plans, plans and more plans...
Ages since I posted. It's odd how so many things have happened in this short span of time.
As for Peter, I think it would be wise to just let it be. If he's not asking for a definite answer, well, the lack of contact for such a long time would suffice, don't you think? Plus, sometimes, people just don't want to hear it. They just don't want to know. I kept thinking I should end it officially and bla bla, but it's only because I'm that kinda person.
I have been working as a promoter for a month. My job is easy. All I have to do is sit around and tell people about the promotion. Tomorrow is the last day! Yayness! I've learnt quite a bit at this job. Bit of exposure. How to deal with morons that you see everyday, nicely.
I met a guy there though. At workplace. He/A bunch of partners, offered me a job as an admin assistant. I'm still perplexed about it since it seemed almost too easy. Getting a job I mean. At least this will be office work. :) Hope it will turn out okay. They... build buildings. Developer's company I think. His name is Fuad and he is 12 years older than me. Has been abroad since 9 years old. Malay but looks mixed. Intimidated me a bit with the easy manner of speech. And perhaps some hints. About dating. But I'm sure he's joking. But it still is o__O all the same. Lol.
I penned down a few pages of details about someone that I know for quite a bit now, few months, I think 3. I wrote it on pieces of paper because I just had to pen my thoughts down at work. I am planning something... I hope it would come true and that my life might be better because of it. I mean, life is good to me, it isn't sucky. But it could be better. At my present moment however, I am very happy. Compared to last year, yes I am a happy person at this point. I am glad, that when I am about to turn 21, the point of one's life that isn't to be forgotten, I am happy. :D
I like the sense of knowing that in 6 months time, things won't just be the same. There will be new things to be learnt, new experiences and new adventures. And for the first time in my life, I feel like I actually have a plan. And that anticipation of making it work, the knowledge of knowing that it would or should go according to it with time, just makes you look forward to each new day.
So many feelings. Fear, uncertainty, disbelief, bliss, fluttery heart hiccups, worry, anticipation but no sadness.
And I think that's good news.
P/s: Is it not unthinkable when someone would be okay with not dating for 3 years just to help another person? Admirable nobility, in my opinion...
As for Peter, I think it would be wise to just let it be. If he's not asking for a definite answer, well, the lack of contact for such a long time would suffice, don't you think? Plus, sometimes, people just don't want to hear it. They just don't want to know. I kept thinking I should end it officially and bla bla, but it's only because I'm that kinda person.
I have been working as a promoter for a month. My job is easy. All I have to do is sit around and tell people about the promotion. Tomorrow is the last day! Yayness! I've learnt quite a bit at this job. Bit of exposure. How to deal with morons that you see everyday, nicely.
I met a guy there though. At workplace. He/A bunch of partners, offered me a job as an admin assistant. I'm still perplexed about it since it seemed almost too easy. Getting a job I mean. At least this will be office work. :) Hope it will turn out okay. They... build buildings. Developer's company I think. His name is Fuad and he is 12 years older than me. Has been abroad since 9 years old. Malay but looks mixed. Intimidated me a bit with the easy manner of speech. And perhaps some hints. About dating. But I'm sure he's joking. But it still is o__O all the same. Lol.
I penned down a few pages of details about someone that I know for quite a bit now, few months, I think 3. I wrote it on pieces of paper because I just had to pen my thoughts down at work. I am planning something... I hope it would come true and that my life might be better because of it. I mean, life is good to me, it isn't sucky. But it could be better. At my present moment however, I am very happy. Compared to last year, yes I am a happy person at this point. I am glad, that when I am about to turn 21, the point of one's life that isn't to be forgotten, I am happy. :D
I like the sense of knowing that in 6 months time, things won't just be the same. There will be new things to be learnt, new experiences and new adventures. And for the first time in my life, I feel like I actually have a plan. And that anticipation of making it work, the knowledge of knowing that it would or should go according to it with time, just makes you look forward to each new day.
So many feelings. Fear, uncertainty, disbelief, bliss, fluttery heart hiccups, worry, anticipation but no sadness.
And I think that's good news.
P/s: Is it not unthinkable when someone would be okay with not dating for 3 years just to help another person? Admirable nobility, in my opinion...
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Looking for a new job
A little update.
I got terminated last month. Maybe it was because of the leaves. Can't help being sick.
Or maybe it was the downsizing they wanted to make. Under developer's orders. Since the title hasn't been issued the management corporation has no say.
However, they'd have to deal with 7 days without familiar hands at their site because my colleague applied for leave. Good luck with that, kind sirs.
As for me, I'm not too bothered. Just can't wait to get my car license. Get the dough rolling. Let me inch slowly towards my goal.
SIGH I WANT DOUGH PLEASE.
I got terminated last month. Maybe it was because of the leaves. Can't help being sick.
Or maybe it was the downsizing they wanted to make. Under developer's orders. Since the title hasn't been issued the management corporation has no say.
However, they'd have to deal with 7 days without familiar hands at their site because my colleague applied for leave. Good luck with that, kind sirs.
As for me, I'm not too bothered. Just can't wait to get my car license. Get the dough rolling. Let me inch slowly towards my goal.
SIGH I WANT DOUGH PLEASE.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Abandoned Fetus
Yesterday, I was at work.
The guards discovered a baby. They saw a woman burying something before dawn, and went to examine and dug it up, and it was a fetus. 3 to 4 months old. You hear about these sorta cases often, but when it hits so close to home, it feels so real.
I wonder how does one have a homemade abortion. I saw a picture of it. It was gruesome. As how they often are, but this is real. It's just there. It just happened.
---
Today one of the cleaners went back to her village. I heard she is going to remarry for the 2nd time. She is 50 I think. Sugoi...
She likes to scold a lot. She is loud. I am kinda amazed really that someone would marry her ... she seems so scary. But now I feel relieved. If she can get married, then I probably can too...
1. She is 50.
2. She is scary attitude wise. She's daring. If the residents leave their rubbish bags outside their apartment doors, she'll be knocking and shouting her head off, hollering for them to dispose of it properly.
My heroine *____*
The guards discovered a baby. They saw a woman burying something before dawn, and went to examine and dug it up, and it was a fetus. 3 to 4 months old. You hear about these sorta cases often, but when it hits so close to home, it feels so real.
I wonder how does one have a homemade abortion. I saw a picture of it. It was gruesome. As how they often are, but this is real. It's just there. It just happened.
---
Today one of the cleaners went back to her village. I heard she is going to remarry for the 2nd time. She is 50 I think. Sugoi...
She likes to scold a lot. She is loud. I am kinda amazed really that someone would marry her ... she seems so scary. But now I feel relieved. If she can get married, then I probably can too...
1. She is 50.
2. She is scary attitude wise. She's daring. If the residents leave their rubbish bags outside their apartment doors, she'll be knocking and shouting her head off, hollering for them to dispose of it properly.
My heroine *____*
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Long Long Time...
Hello, it's been some time...
Ohisashiburi ne...? :)
I have not written for a very very long time.
Perhaps I shall start blogging again. I cannot take holding it in not letting anybody know how I feel anymore.
I recently starting working, my first full time job. In Property Management. I don't like how they hound the staffs. Checking if they're late for work and such. I don't know. It makes me feel so hounded I guess. It's ok if the pay was high but ok, the pay isn't that high. And these people don't know how to relax. It's not like the corporation is even big enough to be called a corporation. But what defines a corporation? I forgot.
I just can't wait to get a driving license so that I can get other jobs with higher pay, at least enough for me to make a better future for myself. I don't know what I'll do, but I think I'll save and study and work at the same time.
This job however, opens my eyes I guess. Learnt quite a few things. How to interact with people. It is also quite amusing. Like some people can be really stingy. Also how to deal with angry people. There was a guy who said he wanted to sue us too. O. Kay.
But there's this one guy I cannot help laughing at. His name is James. He wouldn't leave a contact number. He told me that he lives on the 3rd floor and he can see the opposite block. First floor. Lights on, no curtains. Saw a girl doing it with guys >__> and even asked me if they are doing 'business.'I didn't know how to answer him. >___> Quite awkward.
But I should think that if I plan to stop, I should at least do it if I am three months into it. And who knows maybe I can tell myself, maybe 6 months.
Lol. Maybe.
I guess that's all in my life.
Oh yes, I have wanted to mention that I was with a guy for a bit... I nearly posted about him but in the end I didn't.
He is busy with his thesis but I have already made up my mind that him and I cannot continue in this relationship. It ended quite sometime ago... sometime in June? May?
But yea, we didn't really really end it. We only said, maybe we might get back together. Or rather I think I said that. He might not like me a lot, I don't know, but I would still think it's still bad news. And bad news shouldn't be told when one is doing something as important as a thesis. So I will wait until he finishes it to tell him that we are still very good friends. I mean at least make it clear... =/
So yes, I am typing this while waiting for '1 litre of tears' to load. It's a nice drama that loli introduced to me. I like singing songs recently. So maybe... maybe I'll just record myself and post it here since nobody comes anyway lol. But it'll be a small little project for myself to do.
I wonder how people I knew are doing. Charm... Klang kaki... people that I don't contact with...
Iwonder how peter is doing, how mark is doing... how joyce is doing...
I hope they are alive and well... Read back my old posts... felt emo lol. Baka ne?
I wonder what defines me...
P/s: At least I look forward to travelling... in the future Imean. I made a few friends from around the world. The ones with which I have a pact... to meet them someday and to spend some time in their country and vice versa. :)Hope it'll come true. If you believe it, it might come true...
Ohisashiburi ne...? :)
I have not written for a very very long time.
Perhaps I shall start blogging again. I cannot take holding it in not letting anybody know how I feel anymore.
I recently starting working, my first full time job. In Property Management. I don't like how they hound the staffs. Checking if they're late for work and such. I don't know. It makes me feel so hounded I guess. It's ok if the pay was high but ok, the pay isn't that high. And these people don't know how to relax. It's not like the corporation is even big enough to be called a corporation. But what defines a corporation? I forgot.
I just can't wait to get a driving license so that I can get other jobs with higher pay, at least enough for me to make a better future for myself. I don't know what I'll do, but I think I'll save and study and work at the same time.
This job however, opens my eyes I guess. Learnt quite a few things. How to interact with people. It is also quite amusing. Like some people can be really stingy. Also how to deal with angry people. There was a guy who said he wanted to sue us too. O. Kay.
But there's this one guy I cannot help laughing at. His name is James. He wouldn't leave a contact number. He told me that he lives on the 3rd floor and he can see the opposite block. First floor. Lights on, no curtains. Saw a girl doing it with guys >__> and even asked me if they are doing 'business.'I didn't know how to answer him. >___> Quite awkward.
But I should think that if I plan to stop, I should at least do it if I am three months into it. And who knows maybe I can tell myself, maybe 6 months.
Lol. Maybe.
I guess that's all in my life.
Oh yes, I have wanted to mention that I was with a guy for a bit... I nearly posted about him but in the end I didn't.
He is busy with his thesis but I have already made up my mind that him and I cannot continue in this relationship. It ended quite sometime ago... sometime in June? May?
But yea, we didn't really really end it. We only said, maybe we might get back together. Or rather I think I said that. He might not like me a lot, I don't know, but I would still think it's still bad news. And bad news shouldn't be told when one is doing something as important as a thesis. So I will wait until he finishes it to tell him that we are still very good friends. I mean at least make it clear... =/
So yes, I am typing this while waiting for '1 litre of tears' to load. It's a nice drama that loli introduced to me. I like singing songs recently. So maybe... maybe I'll just record myself and post it here since nobody comes anyway lol. But it'll be a small little project for myself to do.
I wonder how people I knew are doing. Charm... Klang kaki... people that I don't contact with...
Iwonder how peter is doing, how mark is doing... how joyce is doing...
I hope they are alive and well... Read back my old posts... felt emo lol. Baka ne?
I wonder what defines me...
P/s: At least I look forward to travelling... in the future Imean. I made a few friends from around the world. The ones with which I have a pact... to meet them someday and to spend some time in their country and vice versa. :)Hope it'll come true. If you believe it, it might come true...
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